i’m so sad. my psychiatrist is an ass.
how-to-be-a-skinny-bitch: No You don’t understand I need to get laid
i’m so jealous of my sister for attaining the most adorable boy that i would have seriously asked out my anxiety ridden self if he wasn’t two years younger than me. i’m so all over the place and i would literally talk to almost any boy that could carry a conversation right now. i just want to have people there all the time but never actually commit to anyone because that’s...
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i’m so busy seriously school, work, homework, run, shower, bed, repeat
i should probably also mention my current thoughts and psychological processes as to why i only talk to people that i don’t know very well now but i’m too tired and i’ll be home at 11:30 am tomorrow so maybe later.
so today i worked and blah blah blah it was boring whatever and then i drove met my sister and drove some people from her performing arts group to their house which is down the road from me. and of course i’m tired and cranky after waking up at 6 and working 6.5 hours so i drove at a pretty fast speed. as i was turning off the highway onto the side road towards my house a siren started going...
i feel like the only reason people talk to me is because they think i’m weird and it entertains them. that would explain why no one is talking to me now that i feel happy/content most of the time, right? i mean is it too much to ask for that someone actually tries to keep up a friendship with me? i just feel unwanted and i don’t want to disturb people’s lives and although...
doing homework and all i want to do is sleep. i’ve felt so sick all day my stomach is like clenched and all upset. other than that it’s been okay though. i went shopping after class and then worked. i got 29.5 hours next week which is overwhelming but good because i need to save any extra money i get for snow tires. i’m so preoccupied all the time that i rarely speak to people...
i’m actually much happier now that i’m busy all the time and also i’m losing weight.
okay. today is thursday. this is good. two days til i can sleep. so tired. time to weigh myself and check my bank account. it’ll be a good day.
i’m going for a walk with coco and then i’m gunna do my chem. leave me messages?
i’m getting paid tomorrow and i’m going to just go crazy and purchase all of the things in my UO app shopping bag, i’m so excited.
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giving up on life and going to bed because ~sad~
something so weird happened i almost died i am so scared why am i so stupid? help me
me: you're doing okay though right?
school is tomorrow and i’m going to be a good little girl. but i did something bad today. now i have $95. i was so poor though. also i was looking at holga cameras on ebay and i found holga lenses for dslr cameras. do you know how happy that makes me? for $15 i can take lovely interesting imperfect pictures. i’m quite happy. it comes in 6-16 days and yeah i can’t wait. ebay...
okay. i’m not going to act confused about this. just straightforward. okay. it’s not like anyone i know reads this blog anymore. i’m almost certain anyways. the thing is, nobody will know because i won’t tell anyone and i’ll always be a virgin in everyone’s minds forever. so it’s not a big deal. i won’t even talk about it. it’ll be fine. yes....
i want to have sex with him but he doesn’t know how weird i am so i just won’t tell him ok shh
the breakfast club makes me so happy. it also makes me want to have sex.
some things you never get over, you simply get around.
lol changed my mind not buying clothes yet too chubby everything looks bad
fall is a more introverted, lonely and secluded season. i can do whatever i want with myself and no one will know because i can wear clothes, layers and layers of clothes. i already know i’ll lose a lot of weight when school starts because i’ll be anxious and busy all the time. i still can’t get my thoughts out as fluidly as i could before. my mind jumps from one thought to...
i constantly feel like i took a bajillion laxatives. let me tell you what that feels like. shit. literally shit. fuck.
from now on if you want to ask me personal questions about people or something that i probably wouldnt answer seriously, send me the message off anon and i’ll give you a serious answer. all anonymous questions that i don’t feel like answering with be mocked/deleted. thx betches.
i ate a sandwich and almost died.
I’m kind of sad I wish I had cigarettes and my copy of wintergirls. i’m getting so fat. and sad. i work at 9:30 tomorrow. i’d rather drink some whiskey and take some sleeping pills. i don’t have whiskey or sleeping pills. fuck me for forgetting to take my medication. lol. kill me.
okay so heehee the guy who text me last night was talking to my friend about me today and for some odd reason he finds me attractive and was asking things about me because he wanted to make sure i’m not friends with his ex because i mentioned knowing her when we met. and yeah. idk. he called me hot. weird. yeah. i feel idk eh i’m going to stop typing now.
i watched the dictator this morning and laughed embarrassingly hard
okay wait a boy was nice to me today and sent me a funny text to cheer me up, one sec and i’ll post it
I’m in such a little cranky mood. I drove all the way to the bank after work with literally no gas to see if i had any money to get gas and i didn’t have my debit card. so i drove all the way back to work to find it meanwhile freaking out about running out of gas. So ~anxiety~ and yeah i managed to be able to afford $14 worth of gas and now i have less than a dollar but eh it took me...
People always say shit about other people and their intentions and of course you have to assume that it is untrue whereas nobody can truly know the intentions of another, but when more than one person starts saying the same thing it’s so hard not to believe. i’m just confused. i don’t want to think.
Anonymous asked: Now that you're sober, love, what haopened with all of those people? I doubt they ask hate you, that's a lot of people and I can't imagine they all would hate you when you're so sweet
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