i’m so jealous of my sister for attaining the most adorable boy that i would have seriously asked out my anxiety ridden self if he wasn’t two years younger than me. i’m so all over the place and i would literally talk to almost any boy that could carry a conversation right now. i just want to have people there all the time but never actually commit to anyone because that’s just not me right now. i’m seriously like a boy. i just want to meet people and have a good time and avoid anything serious. i’m going to go back to my plan of deflowering christian boys i guess. but seriously fuck why doesn’t anyone like me i just want to have a good time and never have to open up to anyone ever again.